Last year I got together with my friend Aidan Feldman to shoot an experimental piece with my GoPro camera. I wasn’t sure what we would end up with but I was pretty pleased with the outcome. Recently Aidan forwarded me an email he received from somebody who had stumbled upon the video. I’ve never received a reaction like this from any of my videos and I wanted to share this with you.
I have struggled with mental health issues my entire life. My first memories as a toddler, aside from fishing with my great-grandfather, were of banging my head on the floor and not being able to stop. The next ~42 years were a mix of depression, anxiety, and self-harming behavior. Recently, I was finally prescribed a medicine given to high-functioning autistics and a preliminary diagnosis to sit next to the bottle. I am now (thanks to the medicine) viewing a life around me that I am able to relate to and that translates into a language I comprehend. I am now engaging an existence I’d not known was there. It appears that I truly am autistic.
Part of autism is a feeling of not being in one’s body, of detachment from oneself. Two clicks into your company’s newsletter I was looking at a dance portrayal of something I have felt my whole life but have never had the words to convey.
I have been looping your “GoPro: Dance” with a playlist of two Gavin Greenaway songs for the past few days. I am not sure what you intended, but you succinctly danced what it feels like to be in my head. I will carry your dance with me for the rest of my life for when I need a reminder of where I originated. I want you to know that what you do has impact, far reaching. I want to thank you.